Knowing of Sunrise

My inspiration for this piece is my relationship with happiness. I have recently realized that I let myself feel happy, and that felt like such a foreign realization. Because in that same instance I recalled that when I was younger I felt guilty whenever I felt happy. The following thought was of an instance with my sibling when I was a teenager and we were playing in a grocery store, I was laughing and the realization hit me that I did not deserve to be happy. Not because I was undeserving in some capacity, but I simply did not believe I was worthy of it at the time. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am worthy of happiness because I exist. The day I made this painting I let myself be fully immersed in that feeling of happiness, and along with it I felt at peace. And now I share it with you.

To Her Sunrise