I am not a grateful type of person, at least not as much as I should be. I noticed I am more of “You don’t know what you have until it’s gone” type of person. I complain about not liking where I am with an inner knowing that it is actually decent. It is the safest place I have ever known, while it is not where I want to stay my entire life, it is not abusive nor unsafe. I actually feel privileged to be able to complain while painting having a space of my own with hobbies and electronics that are not necessary to stay alive. Yet I still focus on what I have yet to achieve. I want more, I am not ashamed to admit that. but I sometimes still struggle recognizing to be content and proud with how much progress I have made.
I want you to know, you can still take steps towards that big goal but remember you can and should celebrate each step you take towards that goal as well. It can make the journey feel so much more worth it, and the work it takes feels less daunting because you are giving yourself while patting yourself on the back. it takes practice, but it is a skill worth learning. And if you are learning to do that, I want you to know I am so so proud of you.
From My Heart, To Yours